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An “investigation of worn-out frying pans” - Christopher Jonassen
It’s weird because I’ve been doing what I want, and that involves smoking too much and not drinking enough and kissing too many boys and doing other things with them that, according to other people, I probably shouldn’t be doing, but I’m not happy. I mean, I’m happy sometimes. But fuck, I miss being in love and I miss holding your hand and going on dates with you and nights on my front porch and just being stupid and young and in love. I feel like that’s so far away and I was silly for thinking I loved you, but it still hurts just badly enough to know that I did. I miss it so fucking much. Not even you, necessarily, but what we had and the way I felt and how alive I was, all the time.
I just want someone to make me feel that way again. Fuck being single, I want love
I just miss being in love
so i was going to make a post about shit that’s been going on with jake recently
then i decided it’s not even worth a post
lol
if you treat someone shitty for long enough, it’s gonna come right back to you
i guess it’s just sad that it had to happen like this
but, you know, it’s your fault, so whatever
i tried my best to be a good person
you’re the one who’s been shady to me and her this entire time
SO WHATEVER LOL
using this blog more often okay
when you realize all of your friends are members of a closed group on facebook with “family” as a part of the name and you’re the only one not included
oh
never stay up for 44 hours straight and take 3 aderall in 12 hours and take two finals and write a paper and read 100 pages and not eat anything but gum and yeah just don’t do that okay
I AM SO DEAD WHAT AM I DOING WHY WON’T THIS GO AWAY I CAN’T FEEL MY BODY